Accursed Perfectionism

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Stop Trying to Know Everything Before You Do Anything

(everything stated in this blog is based upon my own research, personal practice, and opinion)

Stuck in magical inertia? Or are you trapped in the hole of perfectionism? You know… You’ve got shelves full of grimoires, bookmarked PDFs, annotated tarot books, and an entire playlist of podcasts called things like “Quantum Mysticism and the Alembic of Being.” You’ve done all the prep work, all the studying, all the theory. But… Your altar is still dusty. Your candles are unlit. You haven’t done a ritual since last Beltane. Why? Because deep down, you’re convinced you need to know everything before you can do anything.

Your Ego Lies to Avoid Risk

You’re never going to know it all. Thank the gods for that, because if magick came with a final exam, most of us would flunk. Competence addiction is perfectionism with a library card. It feels virtuous, but it’s cowardice in ceremonial costuming. Reading about magick and knowing the historical context of a spell doesn’t replace doing it.  

Many get trapped in this form of perfectionism because they’re scared. Scared of doing it wrong. Scared of looking foolish. Scared of getting real results. So, they hide behind research. They study and study and study, hoping that if they just learn one more thing, they will finally feel “ready.”

Magic requires vulnerability. You don’t always control the outcome. You don’t always understand the symbols. You can’t Google your way through initiation. The need to know everything is a defense against surrender. This does a deep disservice because surrender is where the power is.

Gatekeeping Self

Then there is self-gatekeeping, the magical masochism of telling yourself you’re not allowed to practice because you haven’t met some imaginary standard.

“I can’t call myself a witch until I know all the correspondences.” “I shouldn’t invoke a deity until I read everything ever written about them.” “I’m not ready to cast until I memorize all the lunar phases and their emotional correspondences in four different traditions.”

Many who came before didn’t have a manual. They looked at nature, felt something stir, and started experimenting. They didn’t wait for permission. They practiced. The door only opens when you walk through it.

The Obsession with Lineage and “Correctness”

Another side of this coin is lineage lust. “Unless you’ve been initiated by a high priestess in a trad coven that traces back to [insert legendary witch here], you’re just a poser.” Yeah…no. Initiation can be beautiful, and so can formal training. So can personal gnosis, or doing a working in your bathrobe with a candle and a prayer. So can getting your ass kicked by a dream and waking up changed. There is no universal Magical Bureau of Standards. There’s just you, the spirits, and what you do together.

Ego Trap

Some folks mistake magical scholarship for magical power. They talk circles around others. They know the Greek, Latin, and reconstructed Proto-Indo-European roots of every spell. They’ve read every book. They’ve argued on every forum. And… they’ve done exactly one ritual in the last decade. This is not the flex they think it is.

Knowledge is power, but without practice it’s armchair wizardry. While there’s a place for theory, if your ego gets off on knowing more than everyone else, but you never engage the Mystery, you’re not a magician… You’re a magical trivia night host. Put down the thesaurus, and do the damn work.

The Myth of Readiness

You’ll never feel ready. Not for your first spell. Not for your first spirit contact. Not for drawing your first sigil or leading your first ritual or standing in the dark whispering names you barely understand. And that’s okay. That’s sacred. Magick happens when you move through the fear. When you show up trembling and say the words anyway.

Readiness is a myth. The moment is now.

The Spiral Path of Learning

Learning doesn’t stop when you start practicing. It deepens. You read. You try. You screw up. You read again. You notice more. You try again. It’s not linear, it’s a spiral. Competence grows from contact, not from contemplation. Let your rituals teach you. Let your spirits show you. Let your mistakes initiate you. You can’t think your way into power. You have to walk it.

The Fear of Being Seen

A lot of the obsession with perfection is rooted in shame. “If I’m not perfect, they’ll laugh at me.” I know this one well; it held me back for way too long. While there will always be those in the world who sneer, most people respect the person who tries more than the one who postures.

Share your practice, not as a performance, but as a process. Ask questions. Be wrong. Get curious. Fall down, get up, breathe, and light the candle again. Vulnerability is courage in action, and fortune favors the bold.

Hall Pass for the Perfectionist

You have permission to start before you feel ready.

You have permission to get it wrong.

You have permission to call yourself a witch/magician/seeker before you master anything.

You have permission to learn by doing, not just by reading.

You have permission to not know the answers, and still practice.

Your practice doesn’t have to be perfect. It has to be yours.

Perfectionism will keep you stuck forever. It will whisper, “Just one more book.” “Just one more course.” “Just one more month of planning.” ”Then, only then, I’ll be ready…” Then, in a blink…and your altar is covered in dust, your dreams are dim, and your magic feels like a theory project. Break the cycle. Light the damn candle. Mess it up. Laugh. Learn. Do it again. Knowledge is only power when paired with action to form wisdom.

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